this is my new venting bloggg!!
ANXIETY… a girls worst enemy! i am 23 and have had anxiety for about 5 years now.. some times its manageable other times its not. i just recently moved with my boyfriend out of state. we are on a mini vacation with his sister, at the moment. We went out to a restaurant that was on a strip with lots of fun activities and what not. I was doing so good, having fun, not worrying, no anxiety.. i was fine… BUT then out of no where, like usual, the anxiety kicked in. now i dont know what everyone else’s anxiety is but mine makes me nauseous and i gag.. never throw up.. but gag and feel like i cant breath. now this happened with in seconds of .. we where walking and all the sudden BAM..full blow anxiety attack.. so i walked away, so u could do my thing.. but with out thinking didnt tell my man or his sister. now i would never do this usually, just walk away, but mid anxiety/gagging.. mu first instinct was to just jett to where there was no people. my man was so mad at me for disappearing.. but what pissed me off most was that he said HE was embarrassed!! are you kidding me?! if he cant deal with my anxiety then i seriously need to rethink our relationship. because i can not be with someone who cant handle it. its hard enough for me to deal with anxiety i dong need someone i love making me feel worse about it.
